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~~~17 years old
~~~straight...
~~~i look chinese but im not
~~~theres a secret that i cant reveal haha
~~~spoiled brat...really
~~~stupid at times
~~~manhid
~~~hopeless romantic
~~~friendly
~~~optimistic
~~~but pessimistic at times
~~~vain girl
~~~maarte
~~~approachable
~~~music lover
~~~ym patron
~~~starbucks addict
~~~looks mature..shocks
~~~lazy
~~~loves travelling
~~~loves beaches and the sand..hahhaa..weird


i live in my own fairytale and i know that my prince will be coming...excuse my childishness...hehehe

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    Wednesday, June 20, 2007


    "The Aftermath II"


    oh screw my previous post....

    so what if i have changed?
    you cant control it anyway...

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    after talking to a couple of friends, i realized that i shouldnt care...
    truetruetrue...=)

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    changes are uncontrollable...
    so what kung ganon tingin nila sakin?

    wala rin naman ako magagawa don...
    if thats what they want to think edi sige...

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    so what if people know what happened?

    can i still turn back time and bawiin lahat ng ginawa ko?

    nope....

    i think i shouldnt be ashamed tungkol don....
    kasi wala naman akong ginawang masama...


    i realized that kahit na gaano ka tago yung secrets...malalaman parin tlga ng iba...
    whatever...
    if you want to kno to satisfy your curiosity sige lang..
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    siguro lang....
    i shouldnt be affected sa mga ganon kasi it will just bring me down...
    tama...
    hayaan na sila..okie??=)
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    " changes? so what? DEAL WITH IT..."

    - I guess this is a beautiful mistake too...# ;

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    Monday, June 18, 2007


    "changes..."

    **** (6/18/2007 10:07:56 PM): sana wag lang mag babago ugali
    carms (6/18/2007 10:07:58 PM): paano naman?
    carms (6/18/2007 10:08:06 PM): di naman nagbago ugale ko haha
    **** (6/18/2007 10:08:10 PM): dont know..
    **** (6/18/2007 10:08:27 PM): i heard some rumors na nag bago na daw ugali mo since nung nag college ka na
    **** (6/18/2007 10:08:39 PM): porket pumayat ka na daw
    **** (6/18/2007 10:08:40 PM): ?
    carms (6/18/2007 10:08:42 PM): shit,,may rumors tungkol saken?
    carms (6/18/2007 10:08:48 PM): kanino naman galen yan?
    **** (6/18/2007 10:08:57 PM): well..
    **** (6/18/2007 10:08:59 PM): rumors..
    **** (6/18/2007 10:09:02 PM): pasa pasa un
    carms (6/18/2007 10:09:26 PM): taena..di naman ako nagbago no..baka feeling lang nila? kasi nagiba nga itsura ko?
    carms (6/18/2007 10:09:27 PM): haha
    **** (6/18/2007 10:09:43 PM): oh well
    **** (6/18/2007 10:09:47 PM): dont know wid them
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    I don't know what to say...or how to react...
    nagbago daw ako porket ganon...
    all i kno is the only permanent thing in this world is change..
    pero i think people made the wrong judgement..ang negative kasi ng dating na i have changed just because "pumayat daw ako"
    well in my own point of view, with all the things i have experienced this year, kahit di pa tpos ang taon. I learned lots of things... and siguro namisinterpret ako?
    there was on point in my life that i got really bitter and tried to do anything just to make that bitterness dissapear..baka yun ung reason kaya nagbago ako.. and that made me stronger
    im still unsure kng ano nga...one time, a former classmate told me na parang bitch na daw ako since nagcollege ako..iniisip ko naman ..hinde naman..
    naalala ko tuloy ung quote na
    "behind every bitch is a guy that made her that way"
    haha
    nagaagree ako doon... pero i never came to a point na naging bitch ako ng sobra...
    i just want someone na sabihin sakin na ano ung mga bagay na nagbago sakin..para maliwanagan naman ako no....haiiii

    - I guess this is a beautiful mistake too...# ;

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    Sunday, June 17, 2007


    "he told me that i have done alright and kissed me through the morning light"

    im so sorry for the late update...

    i was just so busy...
    schoolworks and everything

    akalain mo first two weeks tambak na ng schoolworks...
    and im adjusting pa in that kind of set-up....
    paano nung first year di naman ganto..
    so now..im trying to be a good student para next year....u kno what i mean..hehe

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    ano paba? coudnt think of anything more...lahat ng nasa utak ko ngaun puro schoolworks..cha-cha...economic indicators...multinationalcorporations..etcetc..kelngn ko magunwind!! hehehee

    - I guess this is a beautiful mistake too...# ;

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    Tuesday, June 05, 2007


    "ginagawa ng mga singol girls for their birthday"

    So ayan...tignan nio kalokahan ko...=),,,,,,,,I was talking to a friend of mine nagrereklamo nanaaman sa kawalan ko ng boyfriend..hehehe

    andito na listahan ng requirements ko sa gusto ko ah,,hehehe

    carms : sugar kuya
    carms : uy! un nlng!
    carms : hahahaha
    **** : jajaja
    **** : *hahah
    **** : tama
    carms : sana me gnon
    **** : haha dpt mayamn!
    **** : hahaha
    carms : oo!
    **** : hahaha
    carms : sana me makita tau
    carms : pero xempre dapat matino
    carms : gwapo
    carms : matalino
    carms : matangad
    carms : buff ang katawan
    carms : MAGALING KUMANTA!!! di lng ung mga kanta ni JR tpos un ikaw ang trulab ko
    carms : hahahahaa
    **** : hahaha
    carms : marunong magitara
    **** : dme hnhnp ah
    **** : hahaha
    carms : marunung magsayaw
    carms : sweet
    carms : kayang sakyan random emo moments ko
    **** : sbhn mo kaya, lahat nlng
    **** : hahha
    carms : kayang sakyan sountrip ko
    carms : hahhahaahaha
    carms : pwede ren
    **** : hahaha
    carms : pero imposibleng may mahanap ako na ganyan no?
    **** : ppkhrp ka pa icpn lht eh
    **** : hahha
    **** : oo
    **** : haha
    carms : pero malay mo
    carms : tawad na un sa instrument..kht anong instrument..
    carms : hahahah
    **** : hahahaha
    **** : gaga
    **** : heheh
    carms : ano paba
    carms : xempre un photogenic...papkita mo sa mga kaibgn mo un pic e
    carms : hahahaha
    carms : at iba ibang kanta ang pinapakinggan di lang emow!! yucky
    **** : hahaha tae ka
    **** : dme nyan noh
    carms : yuck tlga un solidong emo!
    carms : yuck
    carms : ganto pa magtype o
    **** : hahaha
    **** : cno bang gnon?
    **** : haha
    carms : **!!!ISTARIRIAY!!!**
    carms : AMPOTA
    carms : ay!!! ayoko ren ng manyak!
    carms : ahahhahahaa
    **** : cno nman yna?
    **** : hahha
    carms : alam mo na..ewww
    carms : hahahahaha
    **** : eww tlga
    **** : hahaha
    carms : kaso parang wlng direksyon to..may mahanap kaya tayong ganto?
    carms : hahahahahahaa
    **** : hahaha ewan ko
    **** : malabo ata
    carms : kng me magbbgo para sakin
    carms : ewww!! feeling!!
    carms : hahahaha
    **** : hahaha malay mo..
    carms : ay oonga
    carms : hahahaaha
    carms : sana nga
    carms : ang tanong diba me magkakainteres kaya
    carms : hahahaha ampota
    **** : hahahaha
    **** : meron cgro
    **** : ewna ntn
    **** : hahhaha

    - I guess this is a beautiful mistake too...# ;

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    Monday, June 04, 2007


    "back to school birthday blues"







    IT IS OFFICIAL...







    ngayon na ang huling araw ng bakasyon ko...

    to tell you the truth, tinatamad pa akong pumasok sa iskool...

    ganon naman palagi eh...

    tapos iniisip ko pa kung mamayang gabe makakatulog ako kasi nga naman nagkabaligtad na araw ko..hehe..baka bukas pagpasok ko, bangag ako kasi wala akong tulog.. tsktsktsk

    i dunno what to expect.. ang alam ko lang, maraming mawawala..pero same faces parin naman

    and i kno for a fact na lahat ng subjects mas mahihirap na...

    bakit? kasi tignan mo to..eto listahan ng subjects ko:

    • Principles of Law
    • Finance of International Operations
    • Marketing Practice
    • Customer Care and Service
    • Business Ecology and Environment
    • Business Math 2

    Kahit ba anim lang yan e alam ko na mahirap talaga....hmmmpp..i need to study harder...HARDER TALAGA!! kasi i need to maintain yung alam mo na...haha,,nahihiya akong sabihin dito eh..

    peros sige pagbubutihin ko...3 terms nalang naman..3terms nga ba?

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    Bukas den...sakto birthday ko...HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!...seventeen nako...yey! isang taon nalang 18 nako...antagal naman noon...

    pero di ko feel na birthday ko..i dunno why..

    kasi siguro un birthday wish ko last year di tinupad...actually muntikan na, kaso binawi agad..hehehe..those were the days..nako nostalgic nanaman ako..haha

    actually i have a wishlist ngaun birthday ko..pero ayoko ishare kasi very private..=)

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    and i also bought a birthday gift for myself.. bumili ako ng novel by Paulo Coelho.. ung "The Zahir"

    ay nako...u should read it kasi maganda..pero di ko pa natatapos nasa kalahati palang ako..

    and then...

    binilan ko rin sarili ko ng bagong tank top!! ung "got pancit" na nakikita ko sa greenhills for a month na


    see?=) pasencya na haggard nako...5am na ata yan e...nocturnal mode lang hehe

    so aun...nothing special...hehe

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    maibang usapan...

    may message ako sa isang tao..PERO DI NIYA MABABASA TO I KNO!

    "miss na kita...di mo alam siguro malamang!! pero ang weird kasi every song reminds me of you..seryoso..nakakatawa noh? tapos non nakakita ako ng kabuilt mo somewhere na akala ko ikaw.. lumakas tibok ng puso ko...amp! so un lng..ingat, i miss you..."

    crush ko siya nung third year high school ako lumipas ang third year, then fourth year then first year college.. nagkakilala kami personally college then dun kami nagkausapusap na.. hehe...weird noh?

    SO ANO KAYA TO? edi crush hehehe..nye..ang childish nito parang highschool amp!!!

    ay teka...sa makakabasa nito..wag wag wag mgfeeling okei?=) walang confirmation kung sino tong taong to..blind item muna..hehe

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    oh btw..may tinry akong kakikayan... i painted my fingernails green then my toenails black..ang weird ko..heehe..


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    so yun lang... wish me luck sa new school year..sana makasunod ako...hmmp..kaya ko to...=)

    - I guess this is a beautiful mistake too...# ;

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    Thursday, May 31, 2007


    "The tans will fade, but the memories will last forever ."

    Today, if you haven't noticed was raining hard...This is probably a sign that summer is definitely over for us... In less than a week, most of us will be back to school..And will be again waiting for the next summer to come...=)..Summer is always a memorable season for all of us..

    As for me, this was the most memorable yet. I've had many firsts this season.. and i never regret every single one of them... Curious?? Here it is:


    • I conquered a fear...

    oh yes!.. i got my belly pierced on 04/12/07... I had a long talk with my mom about that piercing..and the risks that i would have to take... I know that i do not have a piercing-worthy belly but i really wanna give it a try... However, this is a motivation for me to lose weight..hehehe.. NEXT PIERCING?? TONGUE!!=)

    • I got in touch with old friends

    I'm not into getting in touch with old friends because i want them to take the initiative to talk to me first..haha(arte!). And oh, when i say old friends, i meant old childhood friends.. Got in touch with them through friendster...See a networking site is very useful!!=)




    • Got bitter and started a new story...

    • I started a business
    yepyepyep... i started a business.. It's called novels for less... An online store that sells preowned novels.. Though i only had a handful(or maybe less) of customers, im still happy since this is my first "business venture"...At least i get to buy starbucks with my own money..hehehe..My business is still running by the way..So feel free to browse through my albums and let me know if you like something...=).. Next year, ill try the food industry..o maybe fashion?? hehehe...

    • I have experienced commuting via the lrt/mrt for the first time

    I never liked commuting.. with all the smoke and irritable people... However, due to my so-called business, i had to meet clients to deliver the novels they ordered... I would have to thank kristel for this.. she accompanied me from paranaque to vito cruz to shangrila to glorietta then going back again to paranaque...However, still cant remember what to ride..hahaha.. I also met her friend that moment..hehee..right tel??

    • I received an award from school and liked the way i looked in the graduation photo...and oh, im an unofficial graduate..hehe
    I survived my first year in college!! hehe.. I got an award which is the academic excellence award..It was weird because i didnt study much last year but still i got one..Im so thankful for that..yey!! And i love the way i look on my grad pic...Without the makeup, all the stress and having my heart broken at the time of the grad pic shoot, i looked great!!=)

    • I rode a jeepney that was so masikip

    I was with my commuting buddy, kristel when this happened... We went at Mall of Asia to watch Spiderman 3... To get home, we have to ride a jeepney that passes by SM Bicutan... The thing is, before the jeepney leaves thay have to fill all the spaces in the jeepney..Meaning masikip talaga.. And they were all men..All scary men..tsktsktsk ...hehe... That was an experience though.

    • I saw the guy i once loved(the guy on the photo above) and was surprised by my reaction

    There was this guy that fooled me once..Let's just call him "big tummy" due to his big tummy that wasnt proportional to his body..This happened when kristel and i watched spiderman.. I actually thought that i would see him at moa but then i didnt... Which was good.. However, when we reached sm bicutan and passed by that big computer shop at the mall, we saw him.. I imagined that moment to happen before.. But it didnt turn out as expected. I thought that i would get hurt when i see him. But when i saw him, nothing happened.. I even took a second look to see if thats really him.hehe..weird right? im so over him... next please??=)

    • I lost my temper to an older woman

    This older woman i was talking about is the owner of "felinas guesthouse" at puerto galera... She told me that she havent received our advance payment yet..and we have no guaranteed rooms...WTF!?!? who wouldnt lose her temper in such a situation like this? The worst part is, she called me when i was watching Spiderman 3 at the cinema... and i missed the climax of the movie...tsktsktsk...owell she was very accomodating naman when we reached puerto..ok na...=)

    • Had a well-deserved summer getaway
    Went to puerto galera with a couple of friends...There were supposed to be more people in the trip but parents were strict. Especially when puerto galera is far from manila... Had fun... Enjoyed the beach though we got sunburnt(and wasnt able to join the sagala...tsktsk..sorry..)... Hopped into the banana boat..Gone snorkeling.. Met new people.. and relax..=).. This was a memorable trip since it was the first time that my parents allowed me to go out of town.. their reason? "malaki ka na eh"....hehehe..and guess what?? I asked my mom if i could go on a backpacking trip to singapore and she said yes!! yey!!=)

    • I threw up because of alcohol and had a hangover the next day ..for the first time

      The culprit? The infamous Mindoro Sling..Everyone said that it was good so we have to try it for ourselves...It was good but got me drunk..tsktsktsk...

    • I Got a tan!!


      A tan that ive been longing for... For years now...=)

    • I met someone and starting to get attached to him...

    nuff said....

    • Wrote slash typed the longest post in my blog...

    And you just read it...hehehe

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    This summer was definitely memorable.. However, theres still more to come.. Im still young.. I'll probably wait for another ten months to experience summer again and make more memories..

    As for now, I need to prepare for the start of the school year which is next week..Yey! im in second year..=) wish me luck..=)

    - I guess this is a beautiful mistake too...# ;

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    Wednesday, May 30, 2007


    i deserve to be hit in the head...

    estupida!!!!


    All I know
    Is everything is not as it's sold
    but the more I grow the less I know
    And I have lived so many lives
    Though I'm not old
    And the more I see, the less I grow
    The fewer the seeds the more I sow

    - I guess this is a beautiful mistake too...# ;

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